TRANSLATION | Eugenia Yang
拍攝完封面的羅志祥換上便裝，眼神卻是凝重的。黑色布簾阻隔的不止是喧囂的場景，人前專業習慣帶給大家歡笑的他，正襟危坐於我面前，事件歷經七個月後，他選擇接受《enya Fashion Queen》獨家專訪，娓娓訴說這200多天的沉潛…..
After our cover shoot, Show Lo slipped back into his casual clothing, but his complexion was grave. The dark curtains not only blocked out the hustle and bustle of Taipei city, but also casted his usual cheerful impression outside. Now, after what had happened in April, Show sat sternly in front of me. Having chosen to accept 《enya Fashion Queen》’s exclusive interview, he began to narrate his 200 days of self-reflection…
I boldly asked him his thoughts on the news of his breakup and Show answered with a grim expression: “I had just flown from Taipei to China and was still in quarantine, preparing for my upcoming work when Grace Chow posted everything on Weibo. When I first saw it, my mind went completely blank. I kept going back and rereading her post. My mind was a total mess. Thinking back, I lost sight of who I am; her words were a wake up call. I was reading her post when I started to look back at my past relationships, every scene still clear in my head. I realized that I had made so, so many mistakes.” During his quarantine, he posted his apology online and stayed at home even after his fourteen days were up. “I gave her a call immediately after seeing the post and apologized, to her and on my social media. But I knew, my countless apologies will not be able to fix my mistakes or make up for what I’d did to her. And yet, I couldn’t find a better way. I really didn’t know what to do.” At this point, Show’s voice grew hoarse and his expression was grave as if everything had just happened yesterday. Even with all the time that had passed, his guilt never subsided. In between lines, his regret towards everything he had did to Grace Chow was apparent: “I made a lot of mistakes, so I should be the one to take responsibility for the consequences that came with them.” It wasn’t hard to imagine the backlash of taking a wrong step for someone as famous as Show: “Soon, my agency called me and I was worried about my family and how they must have felt after seeing the news. But I didn’t want to say anything; I was the one at fault. I texted everyone who I had work relations with to apologize. After a discussion with my agency, we decided it’s best if we put all my work on pause so that I wouldn’t cause my work partners any more troubles.” And yet the way everything went viral on Weibo and the comments online were beyond his imagination. Show paused for a few moments and I could feel the air in the dressing room freeze again. Upset and humiliated, he slowly revealed how he couldn’t find a way to face anyone. His eyes flickered with sadness when he expressed that he felt responsible for the judgment and scolding towards fans who supported him: “I want to apologize again to all the people who were hurt due to my personal mistake. I also want to apologize to the public because I had set a terrible example regarding my personal relationships. And to my fans, I’m truly sorry that I’d let you guys down.”
The Weight of Social Media
After what had happened, all the online comments and news were against Show, along with all the negative, judgmental labels that were forced upon him. And yet, he was used to them already: “To be honest, this isn’t the first time. Ever since my debut, negative feedback like these stayed. I was never someone who likes to speak up for himself, so the voices and comments grew over time.” And yet, in this era of We Media, not giving a response basically equates to admittance; silence is no longer suitable in this generation. For public figures and artists, giving a direct response is the only way to stop the rumors. A workaholic since stepping on stage 27 years ago, now reaching the age of forty, Show chose to use the time of isolation to reflect and improve. He thought back to his time alone and wanted to thank his friends and family: “During my quarantine, a lot of people were concerned about my mentality and scared that I would do the unthinkable, so I am extremely grateful for all the kind and positive words I’d received.” He reflected upon his past, times when he did right and did wrong, and understood that each time period is a way of growth. Growth doesn’t happen when you encounter challenges, but only after you have encountered your challenges and developed the ability to accept and improve. After a short pause, he admitted: “Yes, I didn’t pass the bar when it came to relationships, but when it came to work, I guarantee that I always put in a hundred percent of effort. And I will continue to use all a hundred percent to face the future challenges as a performer.” Arriving at the last month of 2020, Show wished that he could leave his mistakes in the past and resettle. After his eight-month hiatus, he still aspired to produce better songs and clothing for his brand and to restart everything with brand new music.
Reflect and Resurface
“I want to specially thank that friend who introduced me to golf.” Show admitted that he had never thought golf could be life changing: “I used to think golf is very static, something that is not of my taste.” To him, every tee shot is a fresh start. It could land on a hill or in the bunk, so what really matters is the way you choose to overcome the difficult landscapes. Just like in life, we all face obstacles during different phases and have to take on the unknown future. At this point of the interview, I began to wonder, for someone who’d never played golf, perhaps the sport became his way of learning how to spend time with himself and understand the true way of life. Through all the ups and downs, Show was most grateful towards his mother’s unwavering support and enlightening advice. A silver lining amidst everything that was going on was that he got to spend more quality time with her. Realizing how much she likes to play ping-pong, he decided to host a tournament for his community. When describing the scene of his mother and her friends holding the trophy with triumph, Show’s serious expression was replaced by a bright smile. The happiness and wellbeing of his family touched the softest part within him and made him feel this long overdue warmth and fulfillment.
Rise From the Ashes, Stay Gold
Going through all the peaks and valleys, the obstacles in life, every decision we make leads to personal growth. No matter if we choose right or wrong, or if the results turn out to be good or bad, it is important to learn that time goes on and more decisions await in the future. Every artist or performer uses his or her voice to show support for the causes he or she cares about. To Show, it’s simple: “I choose humor. The effect laughter has on people is the most immediate and delightful.” This world is complicated and ever-changing, making it even harder to stand our ground to stay true to ourselves. Towards the end of the interview, the laughter of an innocent kid, unfiltered and with no restraint, lingered in the dressing room — perhaps this is a form of rebirth. Off stage, his family’s support was his fuel to keep going: “My mom had just celebrated her 62nd birthday. Her health is my happiness. Every year we do our physical check-ups together. It’s like a promise, she takes care of her health and I’ll do the same, so that we don’t need to worry about each other and she can be rest-assured that I will take good care of myself even when I’m focused on my career.” Without passion, nothing can be achieved. He is devoted towards his job, his family, and his fans; perhaps this unyielding passion will guide Show towards his future path on becoming a better man, rewriting history by turning a new leaf.
Choosing to bring forth certain things that never came to light, Show said faintly: “There have been a lot of misunderstandings, and I’d never said anything about it. After having given some thought on the car ride coming here, I want to take this interview as an opportunity to finally explain myself, for the very first time.”
Stealing Eddy Ou’s Girlfriend
“I never stole his girlfriend. Eddy said on TV that before he went into the military, he told his best friend to take good care of his girlfriend, Makiyo. The host at the time said my name and Eddy didn’t respond, but only told them that after he was done with his service, she said to him: ‘Thanks for finding someone who knows how to take good care of me.’ Afterwards, Makiyo clarified on TV that after she broke up with Eddy, she got into a few relationships before she dated me; I never got in between their relationship. And yet the public didn’t stop spreading the rumor of ‘Show Lo stole Eddy Ou’s girlfriend.’ I didn’t want to say anything before because I thought the truth would reveal itself. Unfortunately, this label persisted.”
The Ungrateful One
“Taiwanese media tycoon, Mr. Teng-Kuei Yang was my mentor. On the day of his memorial, I was at the premiere of Stephen Chow’s The Mermaid. My absence upsetted TV producer, Mr. Chien-Hung Kuo, which was why he spoke ill of me in an interview on screen, but what he forgot was that I paid my tribute prior to the memorial and I’d also asked his colleague to notify him of my absence. A miscommunication led to this misunderstanding! Years later, Mr. Kuo found out that there had been a mistake and apologized to me through my ex-agent. It was on the news but not widely broadcasted and so I had to carry the name of ‘the ungrateful one’ even until now.”
The Alleged Sexual Harassment
“For twenty years, my ex-agent, Mr. Te-Jung Sun, had been telling the press that ‘Show Lo accused me of sexual harassment.’ This was another label I carried for almost two decades. I never said such a thing, or spoken ill of Mr. Sun, not even once.
Opportunists Taking Advantage
“After what had happened in April, a lot of people took this opportunity to gain popularity. A model claimed that I had promised her a trip to Europe and even wanted to take everything to court. The truth is, she was only a guest on my show; we didn’t even know each other. I was simply too exhausted to respond to all the rumors.”
“With 2020 coming to an end, I want to take this interview as an opportunity to speak up for myself. I’m simply asking everyone to peel off the labels that do not belong to me and allow me to restart. And for the things I’ve done wrong, I will take full responsibility because denial and excuses will not fix the problem. I choose to face my own mistakes directly and reevaluate and improve myself. Answering your question earlier, ‘What if you can’t reach that career highpoint again?’ I believe as long as I maintain my love and passion for the stage, and continue to channel my unfaltering determination, people will be able to see my vocation and hard work and believe in me again.”