TRANSLATION | Neda
If you can describe a person as a book, then Aaron Yan must be the book of answers. It’s been nearly 20 years since his debut, his appearance has not got aged at all, but he said with a smile that he has changed, and gradually expressed his inner peace with “comfort, humanity, honesty, and learning”. The afternoon of this interview, he took off his costumes for shooting, and sat on the side cordially to answer selflessly to the questions about life and dig into his inner thoughts.
獲得金鐘獎肯定的《36題愛上你》，藉主持一角，讓炎亞綸逐漸拋開對一個人的主觀意識與既定成見，縱觀三季以來，他透露擁有最大反差感的人物非「王世堅」莫屬。起初認為極具爭議性，節目訪談過後，卻讓炎亞綸覺得他是一位十分可愛的人，「他甚至會拉小提琴，讓你跌破眼鏡，也很興奮分享他的手錶收藏都是 G-shock，不是什麼 Rolex，很反差萌。我會心疼他用的方式造成反射回來的能量，可能會招受到一些攻擊，卻沒想到他是一個充滿溫暖跟善良的人。」
With a casual yuppie outfit, Aaron Yan, who arrived at the shooting with his personal dressing taste and his own clothes with full details, and also told us his unique opinions on fashion. When mentioning the item that can best highlight his advantages, he said that recently it is the sleeveless shirt which has summer’s feeling, “I think the body is also a part of the clothes, so keep the body fit, therefore when you wear it, you can have more choices.” At the first glance of others, Aaron usually takes a look at people’s socks and shoes, and then carefully observes the coordination of jewelry. He mostly wears only earrings during personal schedule and puts on more necklaces and rings when attending the TV show. He even reveals that he usually focuses on design, “for example, the width of a ring, the drape of a bracelet, and whether the color of the chain suits the color of skin. I’m quite detailed-oriented from this aspect.”
Aaron Yan, who likes mix-and-match style, said that sometimes it takes very long for him to go out, which may be the cause of the clothes are not yet washed or the same items are worn too frequently which makes him a little distressed, “Most of my picks are based on the collision of materials and colors. I find this idea and logic very useful to me. Do more color crossing or match of similar colors, while you have to choose different materials for similar colors. For example, today is denim and shirts, then you can choose khaki fabrics to match sweaters. Use this logic to match.” How to find your own style, in addition to reading a lot of the latest information, Aaron suggested that it is also a good way to watch more fashion runway shows. “During the catwalk every season, you can see a frame being broken. Now, in this breakthrough, you can find clothes that you feel secure to wear.”
He also mentioned that “hairstyle” is also a key, finding a hairstyle that suits the shape of your face, “To see more and to absorb more, don’t reject at first place, but also be awaken to whether the things you see are too similar to you.”
Reconciliation With The Youth
From the well-known idol group Fahrenheit, to his solo, with the ability of acting, singing and also being a part of variety shows, Aaron not only has his own company founded, but also stepping into hosting field, releasing albums, running personal channels, participating in variety shows, etc. Looking back on his debut and career, his seemingly glamorous life on the stage was once forgotten by him,” Because it didn’t suit me that much, but now I’m trying my best to get it back. After all, that is my past, and what I want to get back is the stage or applause I once enjoyed, I used to reject it because it made me feel lost and too much applause makes me feel a little guilty.”
He is no longer the frivolous teenager, after going through ups and downs, he can understand the position at that time from a clear and thorough perspective, thereby achieving a certain degree of self-reconciliation. And those moments of struggle made Aaron nostalgic quite a lot. He was glad that he didn’t go on the wrong track, and he was very grateful to himself who survived at that time, “Maybe outsiders may think that I have been doing well all the way, but I know that those periods when I suffered at certain stages are extremely painful. There are times when you just want to quit. I miss it, that time, since I’m a person who is easy to fall into something and take things personally, because I have gone through these things myself, so I can move forward step by step.”
2019 was a year when Aaron was full of sadness towards the world, which also indirectly opened the opportunity for his creation, “That was the only time I was allowed not to think about other things, so writing songs at that time was actually some kind of running into this world, not wanting to see what this world looks like, I interpreted my emotions in a more beautiful way, thinking to keep these beautiful things of 2019”.
Deal With Emotions
“36 Questions”, which was affirmed by the Golden Bell Award, let Aaron gradually put aside his subjective consciousness and stereotype. Throughout the three seasons, he revealed that the character with the greatest contrast is none other than “Wang Shih-chien”. At first he thought he was very controversial, but after the interview on the show, Aaron felt that he was a very lovely person, “He can even play the violin, which makes people quite shocked, and is also very excited to share his watch collection which is G-shock instead of Rolex, it’s very contrasting and cute. I will feel reluctant to see him being disliked or be verbally attacked, but I didn’t expect him to be a warm and kind person.”
And the viral variety show recently “Let’s Open”, the audience can see Aaron’s insistence on perfection more realistically, especially in the interaction with Yoshi Yen, he told us about the little-known struggle point, “If it is simply that we are opening a restaurant, that’s easier to deal with or to say whatever you like. The reason why it is difficult is that it is a show, and I also have concerns that he is a backup, so I will hope that there is a lot of room for him to perform, because my own experience is that I do not want others to put me in a way that is unable to do anything. So I tried my best to let him collide, and I would rather set him to be able to do everything.”
He answered with smile that even before this show, he had long forgotten what anger is, but God gave Aaron another challenge of emotions. “I think emotions, to be honest, are choices. You can stop in front of any emotion, so I want to share Kang’s deep breathing really has a reason. I also often do this action privately: wait a minute, is there any other way? What is the reason? Why are you angry? What is it? Sometimes it is easy to blame others for being angry, because he is slow, because he did something wrong, but why can’t we stand it, will it accumulate and break out now? In fact, you can ask for yourself.”
To talk about life, it is mostly a combination of fortune and misfortune, walking alone between peaks and valleys. Return to the essence of life, people are lonely individuals after all. Having understood so many philosophies of life, people can’t help but wonder if Aaron has an “indifferent” attitude towards the world. As soon as he was asked about this, he immediately gave a negative answer, “I am full of longing for the world, So it’s hard to be indifferent to it, the question is how do you face these visions of your longing, and how do you approach your goals, this is a very important choice.”
When the source of everything points to “honesty”, there is nothing shameful about being honest, nor should it be defined as reality or utilitarianism. Peeling away the layers of greed, anger, delusion, and doubt, you may be surprised to find that the original starting point is pure. Interestingly, this also reflects people’s definition of “to love yourself”, “Many people’s “love yourself” is that I have to face every day with positive energy, eliminate all negative emotions to welcome every day, but it’s not like this. The so-called love of yourself is that you are willing to give a way out to the voice in your heart. You must be willing to make connections. In fact, many people are unwilling to communicate with themselves.”
Aaron also shared with us the psychological book “Internal Family Systems” that he read recently, no matter positive and negative personalities are all protecting the self in the process of growing up. Only by dialogue and reconciliation can we find the self and heal the wounds of the past. He has this interesting metaphor as “all kinds of emotions have the opportunity to sit in driver’s seat, and sometimes you hope that sadness and world-weariness don’t stay in the driver’s seat all the time. It can go to the passenger seat , the back seat, or even the trunk, I think this is an exercise.” At this point, ask yourself: Are you honest enough with yourself?